The hole in my heart, is not soon filled.

Have you ever loved someone and missed them so much that it physically hurt? Well, I do. I don't know whether it's because I'm really emotional lately, or not, but I have cried several times in the last couple days because of it... And I don't normally cry very often, at all. I just feel so alone and sad.. I know I'm not alone, and that I have amazing friends and family, but without that one person, I feel empty.. Do you ever have days where you just wish you could hug a certain person forever, and that would make everything better? I feel like that right now.. Life is so different without him. And it sucks. My best friend, my rock, my love. Gone in an instant. Never disregard what you have, because you never know when it will be gone. It's been almost a month, and there's still a whole in my chest the size of a crater.. I saw him this weekend, and I was afraid he wouldn't want to talk to me or hug me or anything, so I didn't really try... That is one of the biggest mistakes I think I've ever made... I just don't know what to do..