I haven't forgotten you!

So, I just realized I haven't blogged in 12 days.... THAT'S INSANE! I am ever so sorry. The past couple of weeks have been insanely busy. I've been working 30 odd hours each week. I could really use a  vacation. For sure. I know this isn't gonna be very long, bu I'm gonna try to keep up more. Especially about beauty products. I ordered an ipsy glam bag, so when it comes I'll do a first impression/review of it. I can't wait :) 

Emotions suck. End of story.

During the past month and a half, there have only been a handful of times that I've cried. Today is one of them. Do you ever have so much that you want to say to someone, but it just never seems like a good time and so you put it off and put it off, and in the mean time it affects you more and more? Yeah. That's happening to me. There are so many things that I'm feeling, and I want to tell you, but I don't know how. And even if I did, you might not talk to me anymore. And that can't happen. You're still my best friend, and I miss you every single day. I just don't know what to do. 

AWOL!

It has come to my attention that I have been very lacking in my blogging as of late, and for that I am truly sorry! However, there has been a good excuse. I have been busy out the wazoo! I've been working a lot lately, and last week I was teaching tennis camp as well as working. Summer is definitely one of my favorite times, it's also my busiest. And since I've come to the age where my friends can actually drive, I actually get out and do stuff! Me and my best friend , Em, are trying to make a dinner date every week. I feel so grown. Especially since last night I finally ordered my very first phone! That's kind of insane! My parents have never been the type of parents to just give us whatever we want. Both of my sisters, and now me, have had to work for their phones and cars and pay their own bills and that kind stuff. I'm grateful that my parents have been like that. So many kids these days think that they're entitled to something, just because they want it. I don't see the sense in a 8 year old having a phone. It's not like they have any need for it, it's just another tool to keep them entertained. I'm 17, and I just now in the last year have really thought I should probably get a phone. And that's only because now I go with friends, or I work, or something like that, and that way people can get in touch with me. I just don't understand the mindset of this generation.. I really don't. I'm proud of myself. I really am. I worked hard to earn money, and now I've bought a phone. That's a big deal. Now, to save up for a car!! I've had my permit for 4 months, so by August I'll be able to get my license. Not that I will, seeing as I haven't even driven on the road yet.....Grrr... Oh well, it'll happen, eventually. Well, this had turned into a bit of a rant, so I'm gonna hit the hay. Goodnight, my darlings. I bid you all adieu.  

Stupidity at it's finest.

Apparently now I can't even express my thoughts in my own blog without having to worry how someone is going to react. That's so stupid. This has been an amazing week, but at the same time it sucked. It started by having to work after tennis 3 out of 5 days. Then, on one of my off days I went to the carnival and my stalker showed up. Then I've been sore and in pain all week. I had a tub of sauce thrown at me at work. Oh yeah, and today I hate people. So much. Mostly one specific person. Tennis camp was so long, but at the same time so short. I'm gonna miss all of my friends and the campers. This week is always my favorite week of the summer. However, I am glad that I don't have to wake up at 5:30 anymore! Woohoo! I can't believe there is only two and a half months until I start college... That's insane.... You know, lately I've been trying to focus on myself and just do me, and it's been really good for me. I mean, there have been times when I wanted to just break down and cry, but there have also been some great days as well. I feel like I've definitely gotten closer to quite a few different friends lately, and I'm really happy for that. I am beyond exhausted, so I think I shall go to sleep now. Goodnight, my darlings. 

Rough week..

This week has had it's ups and downs. Part of it was really good. I got to hang out with my best friends, go swimming, shopping, and just chill and have fun. The other part kinda sucked. I fell and hurt my leg, had a rough week at work, and he hasn't talked to me in a week.... Gosh.. I miss him like crazy.. I don't want to message him though, because there is always the chance he won't respond, and I can't handle that rejection right now.. This coming week is going to be super busy. But it's gonna be great! Tomorrow is the first day of tennis camp, and I'm so excited. I didn't get to teach last year, because I was on a mission trip, but I'm back! Tennis camp is pretty much always one of the highlights of my summer. I don't like that there are three other girls on my court this year... I don't really get along with many girls.. And especially cause I've always been on a court with just guys.. We'll see how it goes, and I'll keep you up to date on how it turns out.  <3 Cala